The thing about motherhood is that you discover this new spectrum of love and pain you never knew existed. You never knew the capacity of love could stretch so far nor the depths of pain. It makes your heart raw, exposed. It’s terrifying. But once it’s happened, once you know this new depth of love you can’t unknow it, you can’t unfeel it, you can’t unwant it.
With the birth of my son came 3 life changing love lessons:
#1 You are stronger than you know
“He’s tangling in his umbilical cord,” the doctor said calmly. “I know you didn’t want a Cesarean birth, but this is what we need to do right now”. Eight or nine doctors rushed into the room and quickly wheeled me down a hall. “Will I be awake or asleep? Awake or asleep?” I mumbled as doctors lifted me from one table to another and strapped me down. This is the last thing I remember before waking up in a new room to my mother and husband. Continue reading